Is it as obvious to you as it is to me?
I’m a complete failure as a mom.
My kids are either holy terrors or little angels; there is no in between.
F. Scott Fitzgerald said, “You mustn’t confuse a single failure with a final defeat.” But I’m afraid that’s what I’ve been doing recently, and it’s made it REALLY difficult to find the will to keep going, to have faith that things will get better. When the same things happen over and over again, even multiple times every single day, it’s not easy to get back up on the same stupid horse that keeps kicking you.
So today, even though it might just be a lesson in the real definition of insanity (“If you always do what you’ve always done, you’ll always get what you always got”), I’m going to TRY (even though Yoda says there’s no such thing) to get more stuff done and look at the mountain of tasks in front of me more positively (ugh).
First things first, the seemingly impossible RUN. It’s not just that I need to lose weight (so I’m carrying extra weight on my own), but K weighs about 30 lbs., and Q weighs about 20 lbs., and the stroller has to weigh at least 15 lbs, so I’m going to run all around the HILLS at 3200 ft. ELEVATION while carrying and pushing an extra almost 100 lbs.! Help me. Wish me luck… And cross your fingers my heart won’t explode.